Chase your dreams until you catch them…and then dream, catch, and dream again!
– Dee Marie
Part of being an artist of any kind is about letting go – soaring into heights madness or uncontained delight – and being anchored. At the moment I feel like I’m floating through space in slow motion like a fat kid chasing cake, struggling to move my mind to focus on edits. It’s not that I don’t want to, I feel like I simply can’t. My brain has turned from malleable to concrete…or cake.
Last October I hired a freelance editor to look through my newly overhauled ms and fast forward a few months later I still haven’t been able to dive into the much yearned for feedback with my usual speed. I could blame this on a serious case of procrastination or I can sit down and be honest with myself.
Yes I was recovering from jet-lag, yes the soul-sucking heatwave consuming parts of Australia sucks my creativity and hydration out the window and yes I prioritize other things like study and work on some of the days allocated to revising. But that is not the heart of my problem here.
I have broken routine.
There is no point dwelling on what is broken, the real question is how do I get back into routine? What happened to me? Then it hit me today with startling clarity…I am surfing the internet way too much for no particular reason. I am normally very strict with my time online but somewhere between coming back and now, I kind of forgot that fact and paid dearly for my lapse of judgement.
Therefore, I have decided to do what I always do when I need to do some serious brain work…slash my internet time to pieces.
My plan of attack is as follows:
- Deactivate Facebook, I don’t actually care about the mundane every day people post about.
- Get rid of the unlimited data on my phone
- Invest in a calendar. I had one last year and my productivity hit the roof.
- Revise every day – even for 15 minutes – for 30 days. It takes 30 days to form a habit. I need the feeling of sitting down and looking at my manuscript to feel natural once again. Once I reach that point again only then I will reevaluate my schedule.
Writing this post has been very cathartic for me and I feel like now I admitted I have a problem I can try to be brave and enter the world of words again. I’m not going to lie, It’s scary being away from a project for a while. Your brain feels clumsy and unrefined. But the important thing is, I’m willing to face the page again.
How about everyone else? Any tips in getting back into the revision swing of things once you’ve been away?
Love and light,